Sometimes I think that what this love is all about. Why anybody love anybody? & when person is in love they don't hurt anybody, Blah Blah Blah.well for me love is nonsense. I am very impulsive person but people love me. I am very aggressive & in con-try people keep on loving me. sometime people call me very rude arrogant & straight forward & see the irony, then also my friends loves me.i don't understand sometime why love is so important in anybody's life . Now when I see all those people who care for me, who love me I feel very bad & start thinking that who am I & why these people love me. Well I never got any answers from anybody because I can’t listen my praise & by any chance if someone by mistake criticize me then Oh My God, I can’t even see his face, & suddenly I start hating him & don’t want to meet him or her in my entire life J. But my question remains the same that y people love me. I feel very bad sometimes when I rudely give reply & they don't mind & instead of that they say that's ok. We’ll manage. I have seen this in my entire life. So you tell me should I consider myself as lucky person that I got so many good friends in my life that they can't even see a single tear in my eye & trust me when they cry I don't even bother. I know I m sounding selfish but this is what I m. today is a rainy day & it’s been 9 hrs & its still raining & suddenly I felt very sad & went outside & saw the beautiful view. Omg that was so beautiful. Greenery all over, yellow flowers & black clouds are above me, birds are playing & suddenly I don’t know why, I started thinking about my friends & felt very guilty. But I know that doesn't mean that my nature is changed or I will be nice with u all from now. no no no I just want to thank you all for being so patient with me, for loving this stupid friend which I know I m not :).if in my life I had ever hurt anyone then I want to apologize for my stupidity & it may even possible that I don't even know about that but I want to thank all my friends & want to say sorry.
Well that's it for now.i may even be wrong in some places but then also if you are my friend then don't even try to tell me. :) Just wanted to share all this because god has given me heart & I am using it :)
